I'll never be.

I love art since i was young,
Drawing competition, drafting beautiful dresses in class ( i did it all the time in maths classes, that explained why i fail maths :D ), and i remember i made my own barbie doll and styled her up!
I understand that people love beautiful things, so am i, but there's something inside me that bothered me lately.

I always asked myself question like these,

What am i gonna do if i actually given a chance or an opportunity to be a designer?
Who am i gonna be if i ever be a designer?
What kind of style i would be created?
How to impress people with my ideas?
What makes me THINK that i can be a designer?!

Oh damn i must've been too free to think of crap.
I mean, seriously? I'm 24 now! Wouldn't it be a little late for me to have those not gonna be true dreams?
Hunn keeps telling me that it's never too late if you want to do it.

He says : " Why not? You have so much ideas on this, that bla bla bla "

I'm sensitive on colours combination, trends and i do think about style that i won't change even it's not so in trend now.
I realised myself actually spent my days looking for just One thing that i want to add in my living room. Well i've visited Ikea for like thousand times and it doesn't satisfy me.
That's how i discovered how bad is the quality of their products. Not when you want to use it for just 2 years?

and....
it ended up that i chose to custom made my sofas!
Well, those feelings are hard to describe while waiting for what it'll be turn out!
Colours, materials, fabrics, style and so on....
BUT all these got a price to pay for it. Guess i have to keep my ideas for a little while before we earn enough cash for everything.
It's kind of like an addiction that once i have my own ideas, i want everything to be based on my ideas.

Give me a reality slap and i'll stop having those unrealistic thoughts.